Day Thirteen: Insomniac

I don't like to sleep anymore. I don't know what the deal is, but i just don't sleep anymore. I just like being awake. When im asleep, I could miss something! I don't get to be around people and I don't like that. Don't get me wrong, I like sleep when I am sleeping. The past week or so I've been going to bed around midnight or one, and then I wake up every morning at 6:37. I also don't nap during the day. I just don't want to miss anything and I want to live. I don't want to sleep my life away. I'm pretty tired right now, though, I can't lie.

Besides currently being sleepy tired, I'm also getting tired about, get ready for it...thinking about food! Who would have guessed I would say that? Today I was constantly thinking about how to get my servings in and what I was going to eat next...like usual. 

Last night I went to a Bible study, and we discussed false idols. They said that whenever we constantly think about things that aren't God, that is a false idol that you worship. Every time that I thought of food today, I would think about how I was worshipping the false god of food.  Every time, I would ask God to help pull me through those thoughts and give the glory to Him and not food. And then I would continue to think about food. It was basically an ongoing battle in the mind of myself today. 

I just got done at IOP. We had equine therapy, which I thought was horribly boring, and made me more tired because it was so mind-numbingly boring. I still have to go to a mandatory dorm meeting, study, and eat. Ugh. Why so much to do when I actually am tired? 

I hope that I'll get to bed at a decent hour tonight because I am tired. Tired because I am so disinterested in sleep, and tired of thinking of food and planning everything relating to food. I'm tired of worshipping food when I want to be worshipping my Savior. So tonight, I think I'll go to bed earlier. I also think that I'll keep reminding myself to shift my focus to God when I do get caught up in my thoughts about food. Fingers crossed that I'll get my sleeping habits and thought patterns in a better place. 

Food Log: Wednesday October 9,2013: 

Breakfast: 

Protein bar

Snack:

Crappy cappucino and a pear 

Lunch: 

Veggie Delight sub-sandwich from Subway 

Snack: 

Granola bar

Dinner: 

Veggie Delight sub-sandwich from Subway 

Snack: 

TBD